The Biggest Decision
The biggest decisions you make in life are always the ones that come with a price. These are the decisions that will affect your life and can not be changed or forgotten easily. Things that will change a person for the better or for the worst. Events in life will come upon you so fast or unexpected that it's almost hard to judge what is the right decision. Many times your left with a sour taste in your mouth after such a event. Or other times your lucky you made the right call and everything in your life is great.
I recently had such a decision happen in my life. I'm happy with the results, but unsure of the future. When it happaned, I just went with what my heart told me, what my heart wanted. There was no time to think, no time to drag the decision through the coals. It was something I'm not used to either. Normally the mind controls me, fear, nervousness, dread, worry control what I do, and how I act. These things control what decisions I make 99% of the time. Yet for the first time in my life... the heart spoke louder. I said yes to what it wanted.
The past 3 weeks have been unreal. I can't remember the last time I wanted to show up early for school, stay 3 hours late, or disobey my parents just to be with someone I care about. I made a decision to see where this relationship would go, and to go with the flow of things. This was all so new to me that I worry about making a wrong decision along the road. Something that will ruin what we have now. I know there are bound to be bumps in the road, and problems that we will have to face, and I know somehow we will manage to get past it.
I know the decision I made was from the heart... and I know I love her. I just hope my heart continues to stay strong and to make the right decisions for me. I fight this fear everyday of not making the wrong decision, or screwing up, or embaressing myself. I just know that someday it will happen, and that together we will get through it. God I love her... Don't let this end now. Don't let me wake up from this dream. Don't let me find out this is wrong or to fast. Let my heart make the decisions for me. The biggest decisions...
I recently had such a decision happen in my life. I'm happy with the results, but unsure of the future. When it happaned, I just went with what my heart told me, what my heart wanted. There was no time to think, no time to drag the decision through the coals. It was something I'm not used to either. Normally the mind controls me, fear, nervousness, dread, worry control what I do, and how I act. These things control what decisions I make 99% of the time. Yet for the first time in my life... the heart spoke louder. I said yes to what it wanted.
The past 3 weeks have been unreal. I can't remember the last time I wanted to show up early for school, stay 3 hours late, or disobey my parents just to be with someone I care about. I made a decision to see where this relationship would go, and to go with the flow of things. This was all so new to me that I worry about making a wrong decision along the road. Something that will ruin what we have now. I know there are bound to be bumps in the road, and problems that we will have to face, and I know somehow we will manage to get past it.
I know the decision I made was from the heart... and I know I love her. I just hope my heart continues to stay strong and to make the right decisions for me. I fight this fear everyday of not making the wrong decision, or screwing up, or embaressing myself. I just know that someday it will happen, and that together we will get through it. God I love her... Don't let this end now. Don't let me wake up from this dream. Don't let me find out this is wrong or to fast. Let my heart make the decisions for me. The biggest decisions...
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