The Protective Shield...
In Star Trek, they have forcefields and shields to protect the ship or shuttlecraft from harm or danger. In real life, I've got parents, family and friends. When the forcefields of shields aren't working, the ship gets damaged or destroyed. In real life, when the parents, family or friends are not around, I get hurt, or make a mistake. But for me... when my parents are around... I seam to get stuck. They hold on... latch tight... and don't let go. They don't let me grow up.
For a long time, I've lived in this protected box. Created mostly by my own fear of new things, but on the other hand... my parents have surrounded me, and protected me. Granted for the longest time I didn't think anything of it... there my parents, they know best. I'm just there young little boy, not yet ready for the real world. I didn't see it untill recently, but they don't think I can live on my own. They don't think I can become who they want me to be. They don't think I can make my own decisions or think on my own. Well they are wrong.
For the first time in my life... I found someone... someone I care more about than anything in the world. Someone I can hold for hours upon end and not say one word to. I can look in her eyes and see the same love and affection I feel for her looking back at me. I would never do anything to fuck up our relationship, or do anything stupid. I know right from wrong... and I know my limits. And for some reason... my parents think it's uncalled for us to be alone together.
They don't understand me, and they don't trust my judgement. I know there is a minor age limit with me and Lindsay... but come on... I'm 20... I can think for myself. Someday... I'm gonna HAVE to move out someday. There not gonna be able to hold my hand forever. Untill that day... when I finally do move out, I'll be living under this shadow. Living with this fear, but I know that I'll be loved by someone that doesn't care. And that someone is so special to me. I can only wait untill that day comes... even if it scares me a little to finally be alone... and on my own. I'll always have her... in my heart... And that will be my new shield... my new protection.... and you know... she already is. Shields up!
For a long time, I've lived in this protected box. Created mostly by my own fear of new things, but on the other hand... my parents have surrounded me, and protected me. Granted for the longest time I didn't think anything of it... there my parents, they know best. I'm just there young little boy, not yet ready for the real world. I didn't see it untill recently, but they don't think I can live on my own. They don't think I can become who they want me to be. They don't think I can make my own decisions or think on my own. Well they are wrong.
For the first time in my life... I found someone... someone I care more about than anything in the world. Someone I can hold for hours upon end and not say one word to. I can look in her eyes and see the same love and affection I feel for her looking back at me. I would never do anything to fuck up our relationship, or do anything stupid. I know right from wrong... and I know my limits. And for some reason... my parents think it's uncalled for us to be alone together.
They don't understand me, and they don't trust my judgement. I know there is a minor age limit with me and Lindsay... but come on... I'm 20... I can think for myself. Someday... I'm gonna HAVE to move out someday. There not gonna be able to hold my hand forever. Untill that day... when I finally do move out, I'll be living under this shadow. Living with this fear, but I know that I'll be loved by someone that doesn't care. And that someone is so special to me. I can only wait untill that day comes... even if it scares me a little to finally be alone... and on my own. I'll always have her... in my heart... And that will be my new shield... my new protection.... and you know... she already is. Shields up!
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