In the depths of space, astronauts, our present day version of explorers, are paving the way into the great unknown. Taking it upon there shoulders to explore new ways of exploration, study strange and fascinating things, and expand human knowledge into the future. From the first man to circle the Earth to the first astronauts to step foot on the moon and perhaps Mars in the near future, these pioneers of space are paving the way for our future. Again… sorry to quote a fairly over used phrase, but they really are going where no one has gone before.
Hundreds of years ago, the Earth was still flat in the eyes of mankind. Christopher Columbus proved them wrong. He could easily have fallen off the edge of the Earth and disappeared for good, but he didn’t. Not only did he prove the world wrong by showing them that Earth was not flat, he gets credit for discovering America. I’m sure all the Native Americans would like to thank him for that… Either way… he was another of these brave pioneers to explore the unknown.
The past year has been a full exploration of every fascist of my life. From feeling so alive and happy that you want to freeze that moment and just live in it, to crying myself to sleep at night after a bad day. I’ve had ups and downs. I’ve had great times and some very depressing moments. I woken up to real life and lived in my dreams. Dreams with amazing people in my life. Great dreams, something I will never forget and never be able to describe in words just how great they were.
I’ve come to realize just how lucky I am to have had these experiences now. No matter how bad I still want them, or perhaps want to forget them, it was a good experience for me. I was woken from my own little world and walked into these dreams on my own. I took the first step to go forward with something so very new to me. I overcame my greatest fears. I became alive. I stood up for what I believed in. I can see myself differently in the mirror now. Having explored these new things in my life, I’m a changed person. For that I’m thankful. Sometimes it hurt like hell, but now it’s different. Those pains are almost gone, but not forgotten, I still feel them, they still live with me everyday. They are like scars to remind me of where I was and how I got to where I am now. So the future looks better now.
However it doesn’t end here. The exploring will never end here. I have to live with this now, and continue on. I have so many more paths to take, and so much that life has yet to offer. My eyes were opened to a whole new world months ago… and that world is so new and alive with color that I want to reach out and grab it…in moderation of course. The anticipation of exploring this new world I stepped into is exhilarating. I guess I know how Columbus felt when he didn't fall off the face of the Earth and proved everyone wrong. I’m learning more about myself everyday. This is a test of my character, a test of who I am, and what I’m made of and perhaps what I’ll become. I really am looking back upon today and learning about tomorrow. I can only hope tomorrow is bright and filled with joy and happiness. Happiness I wish upon some people special to me. Regardless of how things are now, they are the whole reason I’m here and the reason I’m reaching out toward that second star… and exploring the unknown. Thank you… Thank you.
*NOTE: This post was written 5/5/05 of this year. It's possible it might come across as out of date... but it's actually a Part II of something I wrote in February of this year. So enjoy it anyway!*
